I decided to share this experience for those who may be going through the same thing that I am. I mentioned it before in another post but never went into detail about. I decided to go into detail because of the way I was treated in the emergency room at a well known hospital here in Baltimore…noted as being one the best hospitals in the world. People come from all over the world to be cared for at John’s Hopkins Hospital.
I’m truly disappointed with my colleagues that work as nurses and assistants in a field that I have enjoyed and taken great pleasure in doing. My heart felt like it was going to jump out of my chest…I was dizzy and lightheaded. I had this awful upset stomach and felt like I was going to toss everything. My field of vision had decreased to a small pen point view. It was like I had blinders on. I was sweating profusely. I could not move, I felt like I had an elephant pinning me down to the stretcher. My muscles were locked in place. I could only speak in a whisper because I couldn’t move my mouth or jaw and the only thought that came to my mind was “Jesus”. So I just kept saying his name over and over again in a whisper.
I couldn’t breathe and I just knew I was going to die. I was absolutely terrified. The nurse said, and I quote…”you need to get yourself together, if you can’t tell me what’s wrong I can’t help you.” That just made things worst I felt like I was going to faint but I didn’t. I can’t tell you how long this went on. Finally, it was determined that I have major depression with generalized anxiety and panic disorder. This is a common symptom for people with MS.
Take 10 slow deep breaths.
Pay close attention to your inhale hold for 3 secs(1-100…2-100…3-100)
Stay in the moment…you may notice that your mind starts to race.
With no judgement of your thoughts…say to yourself “I hear you and I’m listening.”
Then return to your breathing exercise.
Your mind may have racing thoughts several times during this breathing exercise. Just acknowledge the thoughts and return to the breath.
Wishing you All Love, Light and Wellness.
Welcoming 2018 is a blessing. Today, January 1, 2018 is the beginning of me trying something new. I decided I would do my very best to remain positive everyday, even if it is something that is upsetting. I will do my best to find something positive in the situation or experience. In my pursuit to remain positive everyday I will be relying more on God and The Bible to assist me.
I hope Everyone is well and I wish you all Lots of Love, Light and Wellness.
Peace & Blessings LiMaMi
Shiny, messy, shows up and stays around for days. They say all that glitters isn’t gold. Not sure who said it but it wasn’t me. I’m not saying much or I could be saying alot in this post. Just morning ramblings about the prompt for today “Glitter”. Glitter comes in many color like red, gold and silver. I wonder how it’s made. It’s not like confetti. GLITTER… Shiny, messy, shows up and stays around for days.
John Wick: Chapter 2 is the sequel to John Wick. Keanu Reeves plays John Wick. With an all star cast…Ian McShane, Lance Riddick, Ruby Rose, Common, John Leguizamo and finally the reuniting of Morpheus and Neo. Laurence Fishburne plays Bowery King. From the start of the movie it is high octane to the end. It begins with John in search of his car that was stolen from him in the first installment. Needless to say he finds his car and takes it back. Not before making some heads roll of course. John Wick is a retired legendary hitman that the underworld should just allow to remain retired. However, he is forced out of retirement again by a dangerous gangster Santino D’Antonio that wants his sister’s seat at the table of international assassins that was bequeathed to her by their father. The brother played by Riccardo Scamarcio will not take No for an answer and burns John Wick’s house to the ground. This in turn forces John out of retirement again. Much like the first movie John delivers a bevy of ass whippings, lots of gun slinging, plenty of bloodshed and as only as Keanu Reeves can look hell-a-fine in his personally tailored one of kind Italian made suits. It is a must see and for a sequel it leaves more to be desired from John Wick. There’s a contract out on him and the whole world is looking for him. John Wick, “Will Kill them all.”