I decided to share this experience for those who may be going through the same thing that I am. I mentioned it before in another post but never went into detail about. I decided to go into detail because of the way I was treated in the emergency room at a well known hospital here in Baltimore…noted as being one the best hospitals in the world. People come from all over the world to be cared for at John’s Hopkins Hospital.
I’m truly disappointed with my colleagues that work as nurses and assistants in a field that I have enjoyed and taken great pleasure in doing. My heart felt like it was going to jump out of my chest…I was dizzy and lightheaded. I had this awful upset stomach and felt like I was going to toss everything. My field of vision had decreased to a small pen point view. It was like I had blinders on. I was sweating profusely. I could not move, I felt like I had an elephant pinning me down to the stretcher. My muscles were locked in place. I could only speak in a whisper because I couldn’t move my mouth or jaw and the only thought that came to my mind was “Jesus”. So I just kept saying his name over and over again in a whisper.
I couldn’t breathe and I just knew I was going to die. I was absolutely terrified. The nurse said, and I quote…”you need to get yourself together, if you can’t tell me what’s wrong I can’t help you.” That just made things worst I felt like I was going to faint but I didn’t. I can’t tell you how long this went on. Finally, it was determined that I have major depression with generalized anxiety and panic disorder. This is a common symptom for people with MS.